Moses had some hang-ups about his public speaking abilities. Would he be able to craft an argument that would convince Pharaoh to let his people go? Would he stammer and stutter his way through every conversation? He was lacking in confidence and lacking in skill. God responds to Moses’ anxiety by telling Moses that his brother Aaron would take care of the speaking part. Though the narrative is unclear as to why, this particular solution to Moses’ trouble doesn’t last long. Eventually Moses has a lot to say. He grows in skill and in confidence. (Read: He gets over himself.)
I’m clinging to this narrative this morning. I’m not Moses. That’s entirely okay by me. Most likely, I’m not a hell of a lot like Aaron either. Still, their story echoes about in my head this morning. I find myself drowning a bit in the demands of the program here at GTU and classes have not even started. Just the idea of all that must be done has been enough to derail my addled mind. Meeting fellow students and faculty has done nothing to assuage my anxieties. Nope. They’ve only made matters worse. Their kindness is most certainly a blessing. They seem to be lovely people to a last. It is clear to me, however, that they are all smarter and better trained than I am.
I have a lot of catching up to do. Alas.
I’ll keep the whining to a dull minimum here on the blog. Spouse has been bearing the brunt of my neuroses at the end of the day. Keep her in your thoughts.
I’m supposed to register for a class over at Cal today. I’m behind already. Their classes started last week. We’ll see if I can get in. Musicology 201…A PhD level introduction to Musicology methods and such? Egads. What have I done?
In other news, we have the best friends on the planet. I’m just sayin’. They know why. Some day I’ll tell you all here on the blog. But until then, let it be known that our friends in Chicago and Wilmette could not be more kind and generous.
Thus endeth the whining. Please go about your day.
(Note: We don’t have internet access at our apartment yet. Comcast should arrive on Wednesday to help us fix that particular problem. Until then, we have only sporadic access through the local Episcopal seminary’s network or a local coffee shop.)
